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Is This IT?!

Woke up early this morning with mild mentrual-like cramps around my lower belly and lower back. They were bearable and totally manageable. It lasted from about 3.30am to sometime after 4am about 6-7 minutes apart. I mostly slept through whatever cramps after 4am and woke up again at 5am and they were gone.

Hmm.

In my head I was thinking “WOO HOO!!! LET’S GO HOSPITAL!!!!” but I suppose not yet. I probably would be sent back home and creating chaos at home for false labor. But is it? Well, I do not have any mucus discharge or watery leaks…so still a long way to go I suppose. We will see what doc says today.

Oh by the way, I am going in today for a membrane sweep. My 40-week check-up showed baby could be at 3kg and after discussing with doc, we decide to opt for the safe way out and start inducing her to come out if she doesn’t by this weekend. Well, scans are notoriously inaccurate at this stage but we are also not keen to wait too long and end up with me having to push a miniature humpty dumpty out later.

So really, by this weekend we could have a baby!

And quite frankly we are a bit freaked out.

Wish us luck!

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Random Updates @ 39 Weeks

1. I am now 60kg

2. No stretch marks!!

3. My feet have started to swell, and my knuckles hurt like hell in the middle of the night

4. I sweat sweat sweat everywhere! It’s annoying…

5. I want to go on a holiday.

6. I am starting to get nervous about delivery and post-delivery

7. I have strange pigmentation marks underneath my arms

8. Baby’s movements are getting unpredictable, she sometimes scares the crap out of me when she doesn’t move!

9. I think my mum is so sweet for cooking all my favorite dishes for me before confinement

10. And daddy still walks me home every night. (*awwwww* ).

I suppose I will always be daddy’s little girl, even after I have my OWN little girl 🙂

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The Waiting

We are now waiting (im)patiently for baby to decide to pack up and leave her little cosy space inside mummy. She is not showing any signs yet of arriving anytime soon though. My gut feeling tells me that it will be another week or so past 40 weeks before we welcome the new family member.

Her movements have recently slowed down, and being the paranoid mum-to-be, I have been extremely attentive to every quiver, nudge and wriggle. In terms of kick counts, she is still showing signs of movement with an average frequency of about 2-3 movements every hour. A lot less than what she was previously doing, but in the late evenings she gets very active. So I feel better then. But during the day, I do get a little anxious. The fact that she is yet to engage and all that, I cannot help but think of all sorts of situations that she could be in inside that might restrict her movements and whether or not she is in distress, and whether or not we need to get her out! But I guess she is still doing fine. Hubby listens to her heartbeat a few times a day, and it is beating strong and steady albeit the sluggish movements.

We might have to consider a planned c-section if she is still not engaged by week 41. So another week of waiting and we shall see. Who knows, a lot can happen in the next 10 days or so. We will have to discuss with the doctor next week.

:o/

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39 Weeks

At 39 weeks, baby is still not engaged. She has become slightly more sluggish but her movements are still distinct.

Tonight after dinner, there was a painful sensation all over my belly…3 times about a few seconds apart. Then as sudden as they had came about, they were gone.

The waiting continues…

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Nasi Ulam Mania #2

I kid you not when I wrote some time ago that I am crazy over all food fresh throughout this pregnancy. Today again, I decided to make nasi ulam for dinner and this time did a variation of it with some added extra condiments – fried tau kwa (hard tofu) and a special sauce to go with the rice. Nasi ulam from Southern Thailand that my late grandma used to buy from the Siamese temples during festivities always came with this sauce, but we never really knew what went into it. Although, this much we do know – it is a mixture of fermented fish sauce, palm sugar and spices. So for tonight I added fish sauce, palm sugar, kaffir lime leaves, garlic and some shallots and boiled it for a few minutes. Tasted good to us !

I made an effort with the rice: steamed with 'blue bunga telang water' and pandan for that extra fragrance

Little treasures around the plate: cucumber, fried taukwa, salted fish, bunga kantan and finely sliced fresh herbs

Fish sauce palm sugar mix

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Hanging Around @ 37+ weeks

So…what have we been up lately…?

Life moves on as normal…I am still going to work, doing simple house chores and such. But moving around and even sitting now is getting a tad more difficult lately. Baby’s butt/limb is wedged right underneath my boobs which is making it harder to sit properly at a table to have a meal. I have to really eat sitting away from the table because I am unable to bend over my dish. Which means that more often than not, I spill/drop food onto my belly. Which makes me look like a total klutz sometimes….oh well. I cannot even sit on the toilet properly, you know.

I am still cooking at home, and I somehow feel quite proud of it :P. I tell Hubby…you have a heavily pregnant wife who is still feeding you properly. Be thankful. But the truth is, I am cooking/making meals which I feel like eating but am unable to get them here. Like last weekend, I made scones for brekky because well….there ain’t nice scones around here. So it makes me happy. Although I leave the washing to Hubby because my belly is in the way and I cannot get close enough to the sink properly to be able to do the dishes properly.

People say that the last few weeks will drag on…yes they are right. Baby’s movements are sometimes so strong I feel as if she is trying to burst out of her little confined space. Freaky no?

I am still at a steady 57-58 kg…still trying to stuff myself to gain that few extra pounds but not making any progress. But with baby probably squashing most of my internal organs (my stomach included) not like I am able to fit in much food. Gone are my dreams to stuff myself silly with yummy food whilst pregnant. Not working for me. *SULK*

I think this has been quite a good pregnancy, apart from the awful morning sickness initially. But I am so energetic and awake and bouncy all the time I think I am not normal. Even hubby says so….”Why aren’t you napping all the time like normal pregnant women??” I don’t know…I honestly don’t know. Maybe he feels stressed up because he feels more tired sometimes and I am like staring at him eagerly wanting to do something…or go somewhere….or anything! Yes I am rather bored being a little immobile with my belly.

Ah…few more weeks to go…and that squirmy little person will be staring at us. How exciting!

P/S: I don’t have stretch marks! Whoopeee!

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Hope

I do not have a suitable title for this post, but the closest that I can think of is perhaps HOPE.

Hope for my dearest uncle, battling cancer. It breaks my heart to see aunty and cousins praying for time. It breaks my heart that something like this should happen to someone like him. And most of all it breaks my heart that we might lose him. 😦

Hope for my dearest friend SH. I wish I could have offered you a comforting hug and a shoulder to lean on during your difficult days at the hospital with little JJ. And I am so so so happy for your tears of joy yesterday when his final test results came out ok and I hope this is the start to better days ahead. HUGS!

Hope for my dearest friend AF, mummy to adorable baby A – Happy One Month old! I wish you all the good things in the world and all the hope that we can give you for baby A. Perhaps the doctors may be wrong to assume baby A’s days are limited…but she is one month old! And we are all praying that she will have another month and many more months and hopefully years to come. We pray that you have the strength (on top of what amazing strength you already have now) to go through this and be rewarded with a miracle.

And not forgetting hope for J, and all women out there yearning to have that bundle of joy of their own. It may take some time (or in a lot of cases A LOT of it and some tears and pain and heartache) but there is always hope that you will hear that tiny heartbeat that you WILL see on the ultrasound screen eventually.

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